Friday, July 16, 2010

Love the Chaos

Today has been good. Kids have actually listened to me today, which makes things a lot easier. They have been very healthy and very grateful for that. Tonight, Nana and Papa, get to take the kids for an overnighter and get to spend time with them. The kids couldnt be more excited. It's weird being a mom. It's like during the day, they could drive you bananas. But when you check on them at night and they are sound to sleep, it's so beautiful. And I ALWAYS get a little sad when they are not in the house. It's always too quiet.

I love the chaos I have because without it, my kids wouldnt be here. I love the "listen to me" "get back here" and the "dont do that's". Because if I didnt have those I wouldnt have the kids.

I just thank God every day for all the great things he has done for my family and I.
I look forward to spending a nice evening with Brandon and taking the time out we need for each other. Sometimes we get lost with all that is going on throughtout the day. This will be good for us. A great way to start a great weekend.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Frustrated but OK

I am at the point to where I am so frustrated. I am trying so hard to get this CF commercial off the ground and have made so many phone calls, emails, etc. and every response I get is to either "start smaller" or "we can't do that". The feeling I have inside is to the point where I just don't get it. Why not be a part of something so great that would bring awareness and help all those out there with CF. I'm just disappointed in some people. I have to bring myself to the realization that I cannot do this on my own and control the way others think or feel. God has to lead me to the right people. I think for now, I am overwhelmed with the commercial thing. I am going to take a break and pray about it. I've contacted the local CF Chapter here in Chicago to see about doing something smaller to raise money for research. I'm just the type of person that has to do something/anything- about something that means so much to me. We will see where this takes me. I appreciate and love all the support that I have gotten from the CF community and will continue to fight, till the day I die, for a cure.

I love my kiddos to death and I look at them and am so grateful that God has blessed me with them. Life is hard, no one ever said it was ever going to be easy. But I know that as long as I have the Lord on my side and know that He is my strength, I can do it. I will do it. These kiddos deserve the best life possible and I know the He will provide.

I love my family and my CF family as well.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Life Is Good

Life definately has a lot of surprises. Many bumps in the road, obstacles to overcome, and the feeling of the worlds weight on your shoulders.
At this point in my life, I am happy. I can honestly say that I am happy. My kiddos are healthy, I have a husband that loves me very much, God has provided for us in ways we will never understand.
I look at my kids every day and I stop in awe sometimes to know that my kids are such a gift from God. God has always made sure we have what we need to keep the kids healthy and bless us with such knowledgable Drs. I know at times, I may not agree with the Drs, and a lot of times I am right with how I feel. I thank God that he gave each mother that instinct to know what your child needs and the timing He does it on.
I love my parents with all my heart and very blessed that I have them. I love my Husband and children. But above all, I love the Lord Almighty who has made it possible for me to wake up this morning and enjoy another day with my family.

Monday, July 12, 2010

God Is Great!

This was quite the busy weekend our little family had. Brandon has been out of a car since last November so we have been sharing the van. It's something we've been used to before, the one car thing, so it wasnt ALL that bad. I told him Friday night to go on a look for a car, just a shot in the dark and he ended up finding one!! We took the fam on a mini road trip as it was a couple hours away and headed up to see the car on Saturday. Brandon has a new car and I have my van back. I am so elated that now the kids and I can get out of the house and go to the park or visit Nana. :)
It was weird because the whole trip up to see the car, Hunter started complaining of belly pains. I though maybe he gets car sickness like I do. But after thinking about it, it happens on every long car ride. He doesnt want to go poo in a public bathroom. He holds it in. I couldnt believe it we figured it out. Poor kid. So we are going to make sure we have those toilet covers for him whenever we go out. He was hurting sooo bad by the time we got home. It started to concern me, because at home he is fine. It makes total sense.
We went to church yesterday and the service was amazing. The kids had a blast in their sunday schools. We can't wait to go back next week.
Today, back to Monday. Kids running me ragged, cleaning the house, laundry to do, got the kids clean. I am beat.
I am still wanting to do the commercial for CF and am actually in the midst of emails to tv stations to find someone that will tape the commercial for charity. I am asking for prayers with this because this is something I really want to accomplish for everyone out there with CF and to bring awareness.

I plan on blogging more often. Our computer has a mind of it's own and wants to work when it feels like it. Busy week this week and love to share it with you all.

Have a great Monday and God Bless.