All I Can Say Is WOW!!!

OK, today was a really good day. It's Friday and kids were behaving well for me today. Managed to get school in and Hunter has his first test on Monday in Bible. He has memorized 2 verses really well, among other things. Reading really coming along too.

Friday nights are grocery shopping nights and we usually grab a bite to eat at either Mc Donald's or Burger King.

Tonight...was Burger King.

No problem!! Hunter opted to go for the the Whopper Value Meal instead of the big kids meal with a toy. Shocker!!!! So we got it for him. Now, mind you not, this is a 6 year old who weighs in at 75 pounds as of last week. I didn't think he would be able to do it.

WRONG!!!

Don't EVER underestimate a child and their appetite!!!!

He finished the whole thing. MAN OH MAN!!

Ren had a big kids meal instead of a regular kids meal and she finished all of that as well.

My little chunk!

Where in the world am I going to find the money to not only keep food in the house now, but when they are teenagers!!!! Is it possible?? I pray that it is and it will be. It's hard enough now to keep food in the house until Wednesday before going back to the store for more.

I'm ok with that though. My kids are healthy, strong kids. That's all I ask for.

Way To Go Hunter!!!

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Sweetly Broken - Jeremy Riddle [LYRICS]

This song is me. I hold this song very close to my heart. I love this song with all my heart and soul. I ask you to push play, close your eyes, and give everything you have to God Himself. Let him reign and surrender yourself!!

What Can I Say, Except...It's All Good.

So, good news... Hunter is started to get better each and every day. This antibiotic (omnicef) has really started to work. Treatments upon treatments and his meds, it's going really good. I just don't think the last antibiotic he was on did anything for him still had it the whole time.

Ren has been doing well too. No signs of a sore throat with her and just treatments as well.

So this is great news!!

Yesterday was kinda a rough day with Hunter not feeling well at all, but the mommy (and teacher) in me still wanted to get school in. And we did. Just not to the extent that we normally do. Today, however, was a great day in school. Today, we focused on studying the Bible. He's memorized two bible verses and did a lot of worksheets and I have actually given him "homework" to do as well. My mom kinda thinks that's funny being that he is homeschooled and having "home"work. It did make me laugh!! :)

I wanted BOTH kids to get naps in. I know with Hunter being 6, he wouldn't require one, but with him being sick with Strep, I wanted him to get his rest. They both got some really good rest in today. Yippee!!

I have been able to get some "me"time--nice and quiet, which is slim to none. Haha.

Tomorrow is Friday and I love Fridays because that just means the weekend and I get help from daddy with the kids on the weekend. Not that he doesn't help during the week, I just get to take a break (if you call it that) from everything I do during the week.

I love my hubby for all that he does and couldn't ask for anyone better that works so hard for us and takes care of us all like he does.

I am truly blessed with wonderful parents, a wonderful husband, and the best two children in the world.

Thank you Lord Jesus for all that you have given me.

So Today Was About One Thing...Bleach

This wasn't even all the toys--this was about HALF!!!!

More books--less toys!

So, Hunter has strep right?

My fear is Ren catching it.

The OCD kicked in me today.

Hubby always thought I had it since I am so concerned and worried about having a clean house.

I am one that would clean 3 times a week.

I'm not kidding, I started to think I had it. But I just think it's me wanting things clean, especially since the kids have CF.

ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING.

DIDN'T MATTER.

Well, it kicked in today-BIG TIME! I took all the kids' toys, dumped what I could into the bath, and poured bleach, a lot of it in there. I wanted to get as much of it out of the house as possible. I worked my butt off today.

Considering I just cleaned the house yesterday, since finding out Hunter has strep I cleaned it all again, and again.

Hunter woke up this morning feeling horrible. The first thing he asked for when he woke up was his antibiotic. I felt so bad for him and just wanted to take it from him.

If I could take anything away from the kids, it would be the CF. I used to pray and pray that God would just give the CF to me and let the kids live a normal, healthy life.

That's not God's plan.

These kids are going to serve a very special purpose in this world and do something amazing even having CF.

Gave treatments today between cleaning and antibiotics.

Hunter seems to be feeling better now, but I just hope and pray to God that Ren doesn't catch any of this, let along daddy or myself.

We're not sure if Hunter is a carrier of the strep or not. Not sure if the last antibiotic he was on just didn't kick it out of him or if he is just growing the bacteria and it hasn't hit the worse stage yet.

This antibiotic seems to be helping after just 3 doses. So fingers crossed.

It has been a loooong day and I am actually looking forward to putting the kids down tonight and getting a good nights rest, if that's possible.

Another Antibiotic-Different Child

So Hunter has been complaining of a sore throat since Friday.

Mommy's thinking...Here we go again.

Coughing, sore throat, not being able to sleep because of it.

He was just tested for strep about a month ago and tested positive. Given antibiotics for it and then it either came back or never left. I think it never went away. Last night was the straw for me. He had such a hard time swallowing. I called last night and left a message (with it being Sunday) with the CF Doctor. She calls me back this morning and tells me to take him to the pediatricians office. Ok, no problem. Well, she went on to tell me that there is a virus going around where it causes painful bumps in the back of the throat. Great, huh.

The weird thing is, is that Ren just got off of 14 days of omnicef for a cough that she had. I'm wondering if these kids are passing it back and forth.

Hunter was put on a different antibiotic this time, and praying that it works.

The throat swabs are the WORSE for him. Hunter has severe Dr. anxiety and this time he actually did NOT hit or kick the Dr.!!! This is huge. He still wasn't happy about it and I think if the door was open to the room he would have bolted.

So, we will see where these next 10 days take us with him being on the different antibiotic and praying that Ren does not catch this. He doesn't know it yet, but we are taking him back in 12 days to retested to make sure it is gone.

This is the first year we have had to deal with strep and it's just so weird that he tested positive again.

My kids are so used to pain that I think Hunter was hurting a lot sooner than these past few days, but, weird to say, with as much as they have been through and the pain they go through sometimes, they just live with it until they can't any longer.

I thought having babies that couldn't tell you what was wrong was bad, but it's even worse when you have kids that can talk and tell you what hurts but they don't:

USED TO BEING IN PAIN.

Fear of Drs?

Fear of needles?

Another medication?

I just wish they would tell me so I could fix their boo boos. Before it gets to the point they are hurting so much.

Asking for prayers.

Our Adenture-and YES, it was a Drs Appt.

So, Daddy worked yesterday as he always does and then had to go back in last night to work the midnight shift to have today off for

Hunters appt. Loooong day for me. I thought it would NEVER end. I lay one kid down for bed, the other gets up. Back and forth at least 3 times.

So daddy gets home this morning. Had the kids fed, diaper bag packed and DVD player charged. We were ready.

On the road by 830 for Hunters 1030 appt. We got there right on time. Sign in and he isn't even brought into a room until 1100. OK, patience mommy. The waiting room was packed. Going to be a long day.

The nurse checked his eyes, and noticed that with his left eye, he is tilting his head just a little to the left to compensate for his left eye that has the Duane's in it. His eye muscle will not move the way it should. It doesn't move unless he looks to the right without moving his head and then it shoots upwards. But, his eyesight in general, was perfect. She tells me that his eyes do need to be dilated and then after dilation, the wait would be about an hour before the Dr. calls us in to be checked.

OK, patience mommy, we can deal with that...

So the kids started getting hungry. When aren't they, honestly. No problem. I had packed PB&J for the kids to eat while we were there. NO MEDS!!!! The kids had taken their enzymes out of the diaper bag. They can't eat and they were starving. So, we resorted to a couple bags of fruit snacks for them and held them over for about 5 mins.

So, I'm thinking, we are 2 hours away from home and no meds for them to eat. We have lunch and dinner to go. Hmmmm, lovely.

So, then the lady calls Hunter in to go in for his drops. Well, Hunter in the bathroom Miss. She tells me, "It will only take a min for the drops." By that point, I was just frustrated. I'm like, "Hunter is in the BATHROOM!! You can't give him the drops now." Um, are you serious?!?!

So Hunter finally came back and was screeeeeaming when he was getting the drops put in. Hunter has extreme Dr. anxiety and this did not go well at all. Finally got them in.

I called the kids' nurse and nutritionist while we were there to see if we could just go up a couple of floors in the hospital to pick up some enzymes for the kids so they could eat. Thank you Lord, she called back and we got some meds!!! Yay!!!

The whole appt took 2 1/2 hours. It seemed more like a CF clinic visit rather than an eye appt. I drove home and it was literally back to back traffic. We were lucky to move 50 ft in 45 mins.

My stress level was high.

We finally got home around 4 and what a day. I am beat, hubby is beat, and the kids are WIRED!!!

All in all, it was a good appt. only because Hunters results came back great. We don't have to go back for another 9 months, unless of course his eyes get worse. Okay with me!!!

HOME SWEET HOME--the sweetest words I can say right now.

Stress and Anxiety

That's me in a nutshell. Stress and anxiety. I've had it pretty much since I can remember. Never thought anything of it when I was in my late teens or early twenties. Until...Hunter was born. It all started brewing. I always thought it would be something I could, myself, control...wrong.

Having a child can be stressful in itself. No doubt. I've never really told the story of how Hunter was actually diagnosed. All of it.

When Hunter was born, at that time there was no CF testing with the newborn screening, all was great. He passed the meconium ileus that he needed to, we went home. A couple days later, we noticed his skin turning a yellow color. Jaundice. He had to be put on a machine that would help control it. That got better in time. Hunter was downing 8 oz. of formula 6 or more times a day at a "newborn" stage. Never thought anything of it. Just thought he was a little porker, despite the weight gain that he was not doing. I would literally prop the bottle up in his mouth with a pillow and he would just gulp it down. Until the day came when I sat him up and EVERYTHING came flying back out. Ok. Thought maybe he just got too much at one time, or he just wasn't feeling good. Um...yeah.

Until it happened again, he was gagging. First time mom, not knowing what was going on, hubby at work, and extremely worried. Took him straight to the pediatricians office and they told us to go up to Rockford Memorial Hospital. Through the ER he went straight to the operating room. Come to find out he had a bowel obstruction, part of his intestines removed, and diagnosed with CF at that time, while staying 2 weeks up there. Stress/Anxiety was very apparent.

Ok, so got Hunter under control and then Ren. 5 times in the hospital her first year. RSV when she was 3 weeks old in the hospital on top of bleeding from the mouth. Brandon and I later figured out (NOT THE DR'S) that it was due to not enough applesauce with enzymes. Go figure, who knew?? Hunter was staying with my parents and I told them to go get him tested for RSV as well. He came up positive. So, a child in the hosp with RSV and bleeding and a son 2 hours away with my parents with RSV. Frustrating. Everything in the end came out fine, as it always does with the faith in God.

Fast forward 3 years later. A lot, granted, has happened in those 3 years and I will blog another time about the things that did happen.

I was diagnosed with having anxiety and put on meds for it for anxiety disorder just last year. Is it possible for someone who has a child with a "condition"/CF ( I don't EVER put disease because it WILL be cured) not to have stress or anxiety. I went off of my meds this week and could tell a whole world of difference. Just needed a refill, that's all, and I would rather spend that copay on the kids than myself, BUT it's something I know now I need. Today proved it. I need to take care of myself.

I HATE having to rely on meds. Thinking I can control myself. I have so much going on now, that I know a little bit of help doesn't hurt, especially if I'm taking meds for anxiety disorder.

I guess I would appreciate in knowing if I am the only one. Am I the only one that stresses about their children and the CF? I think not, but how do others deal with it?

Am I the only one that has literally a million things going on in one day and try finding the time to get it all done?? I think not.

Am I the only one who home schools their children and takes on that responsibility myself?? I think not.

Why do I feel so overwhelmed.

I CAN DO THIS

I KNOW I CAN

I wouldn't have taken on all I have if I didn't know I could.

I chose this life, I want this life, I wouldn't give this life I have up for the world itself.

Just feeling like I need to take on the world and not sure if I can.

As long as I can take care of my kids and husband that's all that matters.

Meds, treatments, homeschooling, hockey, the house, meals, naps for Ren. I know I say it a lot but you know what? I am so proud of myself for taking these on. Because I KNOW I can do it

and it benefits my family most of all.

Thanks for listening.

Much Love.

Yes, I Am Also A Teacher

So school has officially started. Started this last Monday. The kiddos are having such a great time with it as am I. Serenity has been really great about giving me the time I need to be with Hunter to teach him. I just give her something to do, as in her own homework. She loves to be included, as any child would be. Sometimes, it gets a little trying, but that's when I realize I need to find a different or new way of teaching.

I think I have found a schedule to go with, I think. At least it's working this week. I have to fit in treatments, breakfast, lunch, schooling, naps for Ren, then figure out what in the world dinner will be that night, and then hockey practice too. It's working though.

I never ever imagined I would be doing as much as I am as a mom. I wouldnt trade it for the world at all. I know my kids are safe, I know they are healthy. They are getting all they need from here at home and outside of home as well.

It's not easy by any means. Some days I just don't "feel" like doing some things. Then, I think to myself, I don't really have a choice. I NEED to. These kids depend on me for so much. I can't let them down as a teacher, nurse, etc., but most of all their mom.

The one thing I want my kids to do when they get older, is to look back and know that their mom did anything and everything for them and their benefit. I want them to be proud, most of all.

Special Moments

Tonight is a night where it's time with the family and the kids. Dinner, baths done, and now playing Dinosaurs. I love the special moments I have like this when nothing is planned but playing. Video taping the special moments to look at in the future and enjoy those special moments.
My kiddos are my life. I think that if anyone knows me or knows of me, they know this. Although I am having a hard time balancing treatments, homeschooling, the house, laundry, etc... these times are to be cherished and I don't need a clean house to do this. Cleaning is saved now for the weekends, and lucky daddy!! :)
I hope to figure out how to post video on here, because I just can't and photos (slideshow), but I will. I want to share these moments with everyone in the world.
These are two very special kiddos that God has blessed me with and it would be selfish of me not to let the world see this.
Time to be a T-Rex!!
Later y'all!!

Hunter...Something A Lot Don't Know

Sure, CF...everyone knows that my son and daughter have it. Well, those that know us anyways. With this disease, it's silent. No one knows unless you tell them.
Hunter was diagnosed at 3 months with CF but then he was diagnosed with something called Duanes Syndrome as well.
Duanes Syndrome affects the eyes. The muscles in the eye do not move the way that they should. This is occurring in his left eye. Noticed this when he was a baby, but was always told that it is normal for his eyes. They said that since he was still so young, his body needed to basically grown into itself. Well, it continued to happen. Hunter was in therapies, so many until the age of 3. Speech therapy, Developmental Therapy, and Sensory Therapy. The therapies seemed to be working, so I thought.
The speech therapy was great for him. He still has a hard time pronouncing certain letters in a word, but what kid doesn't? Or adult for that matter? Homeschooling gives me that extra time with him to work with him.
He still has sensory issues. BIG TIME. I have never seen a child scream and run when he sees a fly. Not just a little scream, SCREAMING, like something terrible has happened. We were in a restaraunt one night, the server sat us at a table by the window. Big mistake. The whole restaraunt turned and looked--he was screaming so bad we had to change tables. Is this normal? Will he ever get passed this? He is starting to affect Ren now. It's hard for because just to get in the van is a chore in itself anymore. God forbid there be a fly or mosquito in there, all hell breaks loose. No one can really understand the extent of this unless they see him going through it.
So, back to the Duanes Syndrome. Most people look at it as if it's lazy eye, but it's much worse than that. He has it in his left eye to where the muscles are so tight that when he looks to the right and up, his eye shoots up. He has to compensate for reading, playing, watching tv and position his body so. He's doing well with it to this point, but if it gets a lot worse, he will need surgery. Having surgery on the eye scares me. What if something goes wrong? What if he's worse than before it? I don't know, all these thoughts run through my mind.
His original eye Dr. last year wanted to do surgery on him that following week. We went to Childrens Hospital where they get their CF care and the Dr. there said it wasn't necessary at this point. It would be more cosmetic than anything. We see his eye getting worse when he goes through a growth spurt. Thank God for second opinions and a mothers gut instinct.
We have this Friday another routine check-up up at Childrens for Hunters Duane Syndrome. I'm praying all goes well and ask for prayers too.

A Day For the Girls

Today I am taking Ren shopping while the boys do their own thing. I think it's about time for some mommy and Ren time and that Daddy spend some time with Hunter.
You know what the weird thing is, is that when the kids are together and we are out, it's a constant "Don't do this, and dont touch that". But, when it's just one on one, they couldnt be any better. Weird. But I'll take it.
Ren and Hunter have both been feeling pretty good. Ren is still on her antibiotic (omnicef) for a cough that she was getting about a week ago. Just keeping up the treatments with both and they seem fine.
Right now as I am typing this, the kiddos are playing hockey in the house. I don't get upset because they are pretty good about not breaking anything...LOL
Daddy still sleeping as it is his morning to sleep in. We rotate Saturdays to sleep in and how I wish this morning was mine. We stayed up kinda late, well, really late last night but it was so nice to spend some time with him. Made us feel "young" again that we made it past 10. :)
I am thankful that the sun is shining and that God has blessed us all with another beautiful day to be alive. Let's make it a good one!!

Marriage: Thru The Good Times And Bad

Today marks the day that Brandon and I started dating 10 years ago. We have been married for 6.
We have been through hell and back in our marriage a couple of times. Almost lost each other a couple of times. But God made sure that whatever obstacle we were going through at the time, we stuck it out. Wasn't always pretty that's for sure.
Having Hunter up at the hospital at 3 months old and not knowing what was going on, then right into surgery, and then staying in for 2 weeks, until he was finally diagnosed with CF. We had no idea what it was or what we had to do. At that point, Hunter was put on the meds he needed to be on and has only been admitted 2 times since then. That's a blessing in itself.
Then came Ren. She was a tough one. She came early by c-section. I went thru hell with complications after that. Then, still with staples in me, we were up at Childrens with her at 2 weeks old being admitted. Now, I'm sorry, but no one knows pain unless they have to lay in a hospital chair with staples in their abdomen for 2 weeks. But...I did it and I would do it again for her. And 5 more times that first year for Ren, she was up in the hospital.
During those first 3 months of her life, nothing worked. Meds...nothing. She was always backed up. No sleep from the pain she was in. Constant vomitting. Couldnt go anywhere or do anything. Sometimes I just wanted to go outside for some fresh air and I couldnt. I will tell everyone, I NEVER want to relive those first 3 months again. It put a damper on my relationship with Brandon. We were just "living" together. Everything was about Hunter and especially Ren. We fought. Bad. We got to a point where something needed to change. We were living in a two bedroom apartment at the time. It was hard. Kids would see us fight. We were just extremely exhausted from no sleep and hospital stays and missed each other.
Fast forward 3 years and we are going strong by the grace of God. We would not be together today if it wasnt for God. I can promise you that. I need Brandon so much in my life and I love my husband with all my heart.
People always think that after they get married, it's going to be peaches and cream, smoothe sailing. And maybe for some it is, but for the majority it just doesnt happen that way. If you don't enter a marriage based on a strong foundation, trust, love, and honesty, I dont know how marriages would last otherwise. Being married is challenging a lot of times.
Lives change within a marriage, lives change when you have kids. Lives DEFINATELY change when you have kids with a condition.
But what shouldn't change or get lost is the relationship a husband and wife have. Need to stick together through the good AND the bad times. Trust in God.

I Love You Hubby of Mine With All My Heart. Happy 10th Anniversary!!

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Suck It Up and Think Positive

I've just really been in this "ugh" mode lately. I've been really tired today, barely motivated to do anything. But... I do anyways. I find the energy that I know the Lord can only give me. I have to get the house cleaned, I have to feed the kids, do laundry, treatments with the kids, bathe kids, then feed them again. Very exhausting I may add, more so this morning than any other morning. I tell you the truth...I told myself "Suck it up". I'm a mom, wife, and everything else and I don't have time to do the "wose me".
So, feeling better, having a positive outlook now and moving on.
The weekend went great. Had a blast at my parents house on Saturday. It was funny because my mom and dad are in such good shape, that when my mom wanted us to walk to this park with the kiddos, I was like, "Sure, no problem". Oh My Gosh. My legs were killing about half way there. It was kinda funny actually. My mom pulling the kiddos in the wagon now (both weighing a total of 116 pounds) and me barely making it. In the end, it was a really great day.
We have hockey practice tonight and looking so forward to that. The kids are so excited. I am so grateful that we found the coach we did for private lessons. The price he charges for both kids and all the extras he gives the kiddos, is unbelievable. This man has a heart. He's not in it for the money but only to give kids what they are searching for in hockey and helping them.
Maybe I see it more with him because he has a medical condition, and it seems to me that people that have certain ailments tend to have a softer heart. They, as well as I know, that every day needs to be given it's best. Live everyday and love everyone to the most. Very fortunate we are.

A Word So Strong...HATE, but I Feel It

Ok...am I allowed to vent a little?? Of course I am, this in my blog.

Here I go.

I HATE this disease. I HATE it with such a passion. I HATE the fact that I see loved ones dying from it, my children suffering from it. I HATE it.
Why my kids. What are the chances that Brandon and I would meet and us both be CF carriers and no one else in our family have it or even know what it even is. I HATE it.
"Why us?" I ask a lot of the time. Why is it that we were chosen to have not one but 2 with this disease? I have to always remind myself that God knows we can handle it, and we have, but why?

WHY?

Why this disease whatsoever? What is the point of it? Why put so many innocent children's lives ( and I know adults too) at risk. All I see is children dying. I am pissed. I am hurt, I am mad for all the families that have lost their loved ones.

My kids are ok and I thank God everyday that they are. Maybe an extra antibiotic or two and extra treatments, but why mine Lord?

I HATE this disease.

Dear God,
I thank you for trusting Brandon and I with these 2 children of yours and trusting us enough that we will take care of them. I thank you Lord that you have kept them out of the hospital thus far this year, but it hurts to see other people go through loss. Please. DEAR GOD, just protect my children and keep them healthy. We trust you and have faith in you. Please be with all the ones I know and don't know and offer them comfort in any type of loss or trouble they may be going through. I know you are poweful. Just give the researches/doctors the knowhow Lord and bless us all with a cure. Not just some with a rare gene or certain type of gene, but everyone completely. Please Lord God Almighty, just protect my/YOUR children.
In Jesus' name, Amen.

My love goes out to all those who are fighting. Young and old. May you know that the Lord is watching over you and will protect you and give you peace.

Still, in the end in my heart, I HATE this disease.

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Easy...No, really?

So it's almost 10:30 here and I am still up when usually in bed. I need to put some things in writing.
This is such a great way to "out" some things I have been thinking/feeling.


Serenity started with a cough yesterday and this morning woke up with her voice hoarse. I have never heard her voice like this. Hunter, yes. Serenity, no. Wasn't sure what was going on. As I have posted in the past, things that go on with kids with CF, or any other condition, is always a "guessing game". So, I called her Dr. and was so surprised to actually get ahold of her nurse and not her voicemail this time. Explained to her what was going on and she was not too worried about the hoarseness as it was just a sign of her vocal chords being inflammed. As far as the coughing, she wants to give it one more day before putting her on antibiotics. Bumped her up to 3 treatments a day, so I figured, eh, I'll do Hunter too. Going good.
Then I posted on Facebook, my second resource for info with all the great CF friends I have, wanting to get advice from them. One told me it could be allergies or stress. So I decided to give her a dose of Zyrtec and it has actually help.
Allergies?
Seriously?
Something that easy? No way!!! Nothing has EVER been that easy. It seemed to help and I guess the true tell all will be tomorrow morning when she wakes up.
I have always been used to the hundreds of calls to her Dr. "This isn't working", or "This just doesn't seem right", but it seems like it worked. Thank you Lord and thank you to all my friends who offered the great advice.
If it does seem to continue, tomorrow I will get her on an antibiotic just as precaution.

I love my CF Family, and my friends (Emily), and thank you all for being there for me when I've needed you the most.

Promise To My Kids

My promise to my kids


I've loved you since before you were born
I've loved you through all the trials and tribulations we have gone through together
Surgeries, needles, hospitals, Dr's beyond Dr's, the numerous medications

I never knew what true love and dedication was until I became a mom
A mom to not only one child with a special need, but two
A mom has duties and responsibilites to uphold and to give you all that you need to get through each day
Some moms have a little more to do


My promise to you:
I promise to always show you love
I promise to always give you an extra hug and kiss throughout the day
I promise to protect you with all my being
I promise to be there for you when you need me
I promise to discipline, to teach you right from wrong
I promise to always show you love
I promise to teach you about Faith, and the Lord
I promise to fight the fight with you
I promise to give you the best life I possibly can
I promise to show you love

I promise to be the best mom I can be

To my kids that know I love them but will they ever know how deep that love really goes. You are my life and my everything. Love my babies!!!